9/24/10 ~ Did I do that?

Yes I did.  I finally got off my tush and did somthing, but not just any something a big something ...for me at least. 
About 9pm ish tonight I got this burst of energy and just wanted to go for a run.  I have been avoiding this since the very day of my last entry.  It was an emotional one and one I have carried with me till tonight. 
I can honestly say that as far as my running goes I have been in a depressed state.  I had been working my buns off for at least 8 mos. and to go back and fourth only 7 lbs was the final straw for me.  I gave up, thru in the down said to hell with it all......I was in a bad place and one I have never been in before. 
I have spent this last several mos. sulking, mending my damaged ego, gaining back the 7 + some. 
The passion to run was there but it was .....like nothing I have ever experienced.  Have you ever fallen really bad off a bike or a horse or tried to learn a cheer or dance routine and just culd not get it?  Well the very thought of going near that "thing" you failed at would just freak you out huh?  And so you avoid it like the pleague.  That is what I have done. 
I have not only not run or walked I have not even so much as put on a pair of tennis shoes since the last time I blogged....(except to mow the lawn ONCE). 
For some reason I was taking this soooooo stinking hard, it is like I was tramatized...I know sounds so dumb but it is the truth.
ANYwho fast forward to today.  I have formed a team for the second year in a row to run/walk at the 20th annual Susan G Komen Race for the Cure.  We set a pledge and met it...I was so busy organizing the team, going over the shirt order, thinking about how we would get there, where to park that I completely avoided one little thing....RUNNING.
At the begining of this week I decided to do a few things differently.  I get up each morning get dressed with jewelry and all, put on a full face of makeup (bcs I love makeup and love to feel and look pretty), put on perfume and fix my hair.  I dont normally do this as I am a stay home mom.  But I swear to you i have felt soooooo differnt all this week.  More alive, prettier, even more energy.  I also stopped taking naps and go to bed earlier.  All this I think helped me get to the point tonight that I have been needing to get to.
So at about 9ish I got dressed and started for the treadmill.  I did the best I could and only planned on doing 1 mile.  I felt great and I am so glad that I did.  I really felt like a wight (no pun intended) was lifted of my mind.  I felt great!
So i hope to say i  am back but I will take it one day at a time.  Below is what my numbers are.

Till Next Time
Keep Runnin
Melissa


Distance: 1.33 miles.

Time: 20 minutes and 0 seconds.
Pace: 15:01 per mile.
Date: Friday 24/09/10 @ 09:44pm