5/1/10 P.T.S. #3 “May Day May Day!”

Well this is a little late…we went outta town on Sat after my PTS so i did not have time to blog on it (You can thank Jason my hubby for that lol)

Well to be honest with you I had been kinda dreading this Sat. PTS for 3 reasons……
1.) In the AM ~ we all know how I LOVE AM rituals. It has been sooooo stinkin difficult for me to wake up in the AM’s that I avoid planning anything if I can at all help it.

2.) The “Sat. Thing” ~ we also know how hard it is for me to follow thru with Sat work outs no matter how much good intension I have or how good I did that week at working out.

3.) "That Feeling” ~ as you saw in the first 2 sessions I had “That feeling” aka wanted to upchuck during the other sessions and that was with me eating hours before I came to work out. I was scared crazy to say the least about how I was gonna handled it by eating only 30 mis. Before I went…

So for those 3 reasons I was worried and stomach in knots the night before. I tried to go to bed early (well relatively early 11pm) and I set my clothes out the night before as well as set my alarm for 2 different times just in case I didn’t hear the first one. I made up my mind that I would eat dry toast and crystal light (My fave now) bf I went.

So I laid down and closed my eyes as tight as I could only to find I laid there for another 45 mins as I went over and over in my head the chain of events that would soon be happening…..at some point I fell asleep.

I woke up with the first and then the SECOND alarm…

I woke up got ready got my toast and headed out. Got there on time and now the fun began!

We ran a 1 mile warm up you may be thinking “Hey that should be easy enough for you …Mrs. 5k” Yeah well NO it was a struggle for me I felt tight and like I was 3 foot tall trying to run with tightened muscles (Yes I did stretch) I just felt short and stout ya know? I felt like I was taking a million tiny steps and it was taking o much effort and time for me to complete this. I was pretty much embarrassed to tell ya the truth. I was actually thinking “So here I am a ‘Runnin Munchkin’ and I am feeling as if I am on mile 13 of a 200 mile run how the heck am I going to run a 26 miler, a 12 miler, a 6 miler, a 3.2 miler or even another step….what an I doing here is this what I want?” Why is it this question of “Why am I here” haunts me when things get tough? I hate that it make me doubt myself and my intentions as well as be littles the results I have seen. I will let ya know when I find this out!

Next we plopped down (well I did) and did ab work *what joy I felt!* (*note sarcasm*).

Then it was off to the “Circle of Love” man Killer has some pretty sick names for things lol…so we did this “circle of pain” I mean Love and it was just *great*. It consisted of running, back peddling, sidekicks and other great stuff. After this we went to our Stations….Kicks, Squats with like a *50 lb* weight on our backs and arm presses using rubber bands. We went thru the stations twice.
Then more ab work I believe I don’t recall by this time I was fading and gripping and sweating up a stinkin storm. It was a HUMID nasty sunny morning! YUCK.
I remember thinking wow I haven’t had the feeling yet cool! BUT by 45 mins in there it was good ol faithful my “feelings” I was thinking “Hey I had like ½ a toast what really can come up?” Thank goodness on this day I had no bad answer to that question! I pushed thru it and it was ok. So the last bit we RAN and RAN and RAN and RAN and RAN and RAN and what better thing for the “Runnin Munchkin” to do since I was already feeling so dang confident! Oh and it wasn’t RUNNING it was SPRINTING (short distances) AND coming in LAST each TIME and that makes a “Runnin Munchkin” feel even more adequate…much like the miserable lil sap getting pick LAST for dodge ball! Thanks JP! ;)

So after this exercise in confidence that was it the session was over and man was I glad! Emotionally not my best BUT I did it nonetheless. So for that reason alone I am happy. Don’t get me wrong I love what I am doing you may not be able to tell it by reading but for anyone who knows me and knows my love hate relationship with myself and humor you can see I am all good with this.

So till next time
Keep Runnin,

Melissa