Personal Trainer Info:
Jonathan Pena (Angleton Local)
jpfitnessforever@hotmail.com
832-519-6203
Currently: Running a boot camp that meets 3 days a week at Dickey Park
Today I went for my second class with Jonathan Pena..or killer as I will refer to him!
What is so funny is that he has this very nice sincere smile on his face as he telling you to do your 50th ab crunch or your 150th push up and he isn’t doing it sarcastically but still it hurts like Haiti!
Today it was only me and one other girl it was a nice and breezy. BUT the one thing I use to love about this park now make me sick to my stomach…Remember those “wonderful lovely scented honeysuckles” I blogged about a few notes ago…How it was so nice and relaxing to just smell them as I jogged by? (DRAG NEEDLE ACROSS RECORD) Scratch that they stink to high heaven and I hate, dare I say, the way they smell as I am pushin this ol’ body to go to it’s limits…seriously they make me wanna puke they are so sweet and strong.
How crazy it is that when you are in your personal set zone the world is lovely and pleasant but then you get put into someone else’s zone and the world is out to get cha and it stinks! LOL
Well I did have “that feeling” again today you know the ol up chuck one BUT this time I just pushed through and drank water and got through it.
We ran ½ mile warm up and as I was doing it I was think “Man what the heck am I do here? How much of this can this fat body take? WHY am I doing this I see no results!” Literally tears came to my eyes I wanted to walk off that Darn sidewalk and go home. Then I remember just today a conversation I had on FB with someone she had felt the same way and I was over her telling her to just push through and blah blah blah…I felt like such a hypocrite BUT I did it I pushed the tears away and I talked to myself and said…”Melissa you are hear bcs every time you couldn’t handle an emotion you ate…you were happy you ate…you were sad you ate…you were ticked off you ate…you couldn’t fit into the cloths at the store you ate….where the heck else did you think you would end up it that is all you did? No you will finish, you will stop feeling sorry for yourself, you will endure whatever the heck you have to to get back to where you are happy again…and you will STOP CALLING YOURSELF FAT!”
As we all know I use that term to describe myself a lot…like I have said before I do it to beat others to the punch. But this time when I said it it hurt MY feelings…how can that be? I mean can you really hurt your own feelings? All I know is that I felt like someone important to me had been disapproving of me…and I realized “Hey that is the first time I had ever considered my thoughts of me to be important” (not in a stuck up way but I know some of you will know what I mean).
For the first time I was important and I was expecting more and better of myself and I was not allowing EVEN me to talk down to myself….That was a real breakthrough for me today.
Mean while back at the park (and outta my head) We did a trillion ab exercises and this one thing I like to call “Count down to Pain” (Jonathan feel free to use that if you like). All I will say is that it involved 210 bicep curls and 210 pushups O YOU read right 210 of each…needless to say during this “Count down to Pain” I was seriously thinking “You know maybe I can break into his truck and take back my check (for the month of may) LOL”
BUT guess what…I FLIPPIN DID IT…it wasn’t pretty, it wasn’t easy and it wasn’t without some moaning and gripping from me BUT I DID IT! WOW so now all I have to do is rest up tomorrow and get ready for my next session on sat…what a joy!
OH and a special thank you to my personal cheer team Brenda and Kay "Ya'll so craaaazy"
Till nest time
Keep Runnin
Melissa
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