5/4/10 PTS #4 ~ Nervous Smervous

Today I must admit I was VERRRY nervous about going to PTS.

Mainly bcs I saw that Mr. Sun would have no mercy on us today AND I knew I had only eaten ONCE before I went to PTS. At that is was a salad and a 1/2 can of soup at 2pm. I know weird huh. TO be the size I am and then to eat like that. Well here is my dirty little secret.

1. I don’t like breakfast foods ~ therefore I will skip the meal rather than eat
2. IF I skip the meal I am not hungry till 1 or 2 pm
3. If I wait to have my first meal then I can go healthy
BUT where I go bad is
4. LATE NIGHT eating, snacking or portion control
5. By dinner I am starving and will have 2 helpings at least of the dinner (Shut up don’t judge me)

I know that all reeks bad but that is what it has been for me.

Over the last several mos. I have read & heard so much about food and diet (way of eating I hate the D word). What I am learning was only brought into clear focus today as I read a status update from my Calif mentor (Lorella Crew) if you read her story you would know why she is my "Shero". She said
"FUEL my body rather than FEED my hunger" (I hope I got that right Rella). For some crazy reason I read that and allllllll the stuff I have been hearing and reading just came into clear focus. I told myself “DUH HELLO sista where have you been that sums it all up."

Then today I had PTS and Killer cave me some nutritional info and in it it had a sample daily "fueling Schedule" and it all clicked. This is a major thinking change for me and first thing tomorrow I am on board. I DID come home and have a healthy dinner and I feel great. I already set some snacks (Apple and almonds) aside for me to eat tonight IF I HAVE to eat anything else.

Meanwhile back at the park. We all got there and the sun was up and high! I was so nervous I would get that "feeling" again esp. bcs I had all of nothing to eat today. Well we warmed up with a mile run..I didn’t feel like a Runnin Munchkin today...still not like Carl Lewis but I felt better.

We came to the "Circle of Love" and did a pretty awesome work out consisting of Running, squats, abs and Running OH and a new lil thing I like to call "River Dance" well Killer actually came up with that but it was so fitting. That one I will work on throughout the week...it was something totally do-able and helpful.

We also had to do these "jumps" (Killer you know the ones) I have to say I was not too keen on then...it made me go back to my "Fat Talk" and that was not cool with me. BUT I am hoping that with some of this weight gone it will get better. That is one Personal Challenge I would like to work on (Killer can you follow thru on that with me?)

After all this we did ab work and I found all this to be "do-able" as well and I hope to incorporate it in my daily activity.

funny thing is that Bf the PTS killer checked in on me and i mentioned to him i was Nervous...didnt hear anything else after thaat.

When the session was over as I was walking away he said "See nothing to be nervous about you did a good job today"
Little things like that (words of encouragement) really make me feel good about choosing JPFitness and Jonathan to help me in this. It is a HUGE thng to me. Thanks Jonathan

Also thank you to Lorella, Shannan H, Mom, Laura M, Andrea, Brenda, Kay, Crystal, Steve S, Glendon, Bobbye, Joanie and Momma C for reading my blogs, sharing kind words as well as your belief in me along this journey.

You have no idea how your words and prayers fuel me. I think of all of them while I am out there runnin, walking, joggin or in training. I am truely blessed.

Till next time
Keep Runnin